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"as if she knew beauty
was something to be ashamed of."
~Susan Musgrave
 "the thing is we feel
small, not wanting to sleep but to
lie down wonderfully together."
~Susan Musgrave
 "I'm in love with a
man I'll never
meet."
~Susan Musgrave
 "So belong to
yourself
and to no other:
there is no way
to change, no hope
as wild."
~Susan Musgrave
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due to circumstances. . . . . .
Friday, August 22, 2003
due to recent changes and need for a new creative direction i've descided to leave grated cheese and form to the image of fuzzy lettuce, as it seems to reveal a lot more about my mind frame and set....
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posted at 08:18 p.m.
letters of the past
Friday, August 22, 2003
Thursday
June 5th
8:49pm
"And here the broken heart sits. Still onely, but less seemingly so. Those arms that i fell into still hold me but yet, here i sit alone in the sunset. Alone, battered and bruised but, cared for. Cared for and yet abandoned. i mourn my loss of innocence but once things go, you don't turn back. I refuse to- i'm stubborn and yet so afraid. Once things work out, the "yang" falls apart- i'm forever chasing the happiness not meant to be.
posted at 08:07 p.m.
letters of the past
Sunday, August 17, 2003
Tuesday
May 6th
8:27am
To whomever this gets to,
These are my thoughts.
I do not expect them to seem logical, rational, nor fair. They won't be written as if i'm wearing another's shoes, they are simply just my thoughts. i would not be surprised if they lead no where and appear jumbled up and backward. But these are my thoughts and i'm sure of that, as if it's the only certainty in my life.
"I'm sitting here at 'good ol' Tim Ho's' as i always do. Today i'm listening to a group discussing the latest Canucks loss- 7 to 2, while staring mindlessly outside. It seems nice outside and i'm glad because i'm going to be doing a lot of walking today. Not that that comes of any surprise- i'm always walking. i have a restless spirit. Blame it on the lack of nicotine, or the overconsumption of caffine; i don't know the cause, all i do know is that i waste a lot of time just sitting here, and i will be doing a lot of walking today. *sighs* it's nice to have, at least, these two certainties in my life, especially at this time in my life. And just wat is happening? i only wish i knew. *sighs* i spent from March 25th to about April 25th happy with a guy that was able to make me smile. it was hard because we had to make a huge effort to see each other (two different worlds) but i was happy (it would be 'wrong' to say 'we' because of recent actions that create doubts). It was also kinda sad because everyone thought our relationship was pointless and maybe it was but hearts aren't often bothered by that. *sighs* However, this heart (*turns page over*)is bothered by twisted loyalty. This is wat causes my confused mind. i thought we were happy-wrong. This sends my mind into a spiral, i feel betrayed and played a fool. i still know who i am but i find myself disliking reality more and more. i also find myself falling into arms that want to hold me. A broken heart feels less whole.
posted at 08:32 p.m.
Friday, August 15, 2003
Letter Found Addressed To Travis
well i did it trav. i didn't disrespect you and go have krazy sex with a bunch of guys this summer...and i even had the chance...*laughs* well, i always have the chance *winks* but this time i actually found someone that i wanted and i didn't. And now he's gone. Not because of the no sex thing but because he's gone for the rest of the summer and i know i'm a complete idiot...but you know that feeling when you have such a huge connection. the connection that makes you forget to even eat or sleep or anything? well, i felt that. and now he's gone and totally out of my life and i have this heartache that i KNOW i can get over it...because, hell, that's wat i do but i just kinda need my "wall" to lean on a bit...and shake sum sense into me 'cause i really shouldn't have this big of a heartache...it's just that i haven't ever fallen in love with sumone (and had them feel the same) since doug and this whole heartache thing is kinda new to me when i actually had feelings for the guy...
posted at 07:55 p.m.
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